So for those of you who don't know.... I'm now going back to school. I'm about to finish my first quarter and then on to my next. I've currently been taking 3 classes with a ton of homework and will now be taking 5 full time classes and 1 part time class. I'm so thankful that the Lord has provided me with the opportunity to go back to school.
During this current quarter, I've had to deal with my son having seizures more than normal. If you don't know me, or my situation, my son is almost 5 and started having seizures at the age of 3 1/2. He went from being a perfectly healthy kid (who almost never was sick), to having seizures out of the blue. He has about 4 different types of seizures. We deal with grand mals at least once every 2 weeks, but can as little as every 3 days. Lately, he's been having his other seizures every day. I know a lot of people see my tough outer shell, but what mom doesn't break down from time to time having to deal with things like this? Yes, I have my days where I just break down crying, wondering why God allows this to happen. The thing is, I know God loves my son even more than I do, so He will take care of all of Silas' needs. We have been blessed even through this, for the fact that our marriage has grown. We've decided to give all of our concerns and frustrations about it to the Lord and He in turn has given us the strength to deal with it. We just started a new medication a few days ago on top of what he's already taking. It's hard to watch sometimes because he goes through emotional/aggressive behaviors whenever he starts a new medication, but it usually seems to mellow out after a couple of weeks.
Anyone who reads this, I ask you to pray for my son. For protection for his brain, for him to do well with schooling (the doc told us he will NOT do well, but I'm believing that God has more for him), and for the right medication to be found for him. Please also pray for our girls who are younger. I don't ever want them to feel neglected, although that sometimes is hard being that we are dealing with Silas so much. And lastly, for Paul and I, that God will continue to give us strength everyday. That He will guide us in how to deal with these seizures and that through all of this hardship for us, that it will bring glory to His kingdom.
I just want to say, even with all that I've had to deal with, it is such a blessing to have each child.....no matter if I have to deal with seizures or not. Just to hear him say (especially after having a seizure), "I love you mommy" it brings tears to my eyes knowing he's hurting, but joy at the same time that God has blessed me with such a wonderful little man!